“But whatever gains I had, these I have come to consider a loss because of Christ. More than that, I even consider everything as a loss because of the supreme good of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord” (Phil 3:7-8). In meditating upon my upcoming profession of vows, the words “in poverty” are what touch my heart the most. By the vow of poverty, I am saying that Jesus Christ will be my everything. As my spouse, I can share everything with Him. In giving Him everything, I am receiving everything I could ever want or need. Jesus will be my source of strength, my hopes, my dreams, my joys, and my consolation in the midst of sorrow. He is the one who gives me life and the one who will lead me. He willingly died for me, and now I am being asked to follow Him and empty myself of all that I am, including my weakness. Only by emptying myself am I able to receive His love and His grace, for “(His) grace is sufficient for me, for power is made perfect in weakness” (2 Cor 12:12).
Recently, I found a reflection I had written during my first retreat as a postulant. The last conference that had been given was on Spiritual Motherhood. As I approached the 4 th Station where Jesus meets His Sorrowful Mother, this is what struck my heart: What is the sacrificial love of a mother? It is the self-sacrifice made to love her children. Mary’s self-sacrifice to be there with Christ, her Son, in His passion was the selfless love that united her with Him. Her heart was pierced with 7 swords in the agony of watching her beloved Son endure a cross that He did not deserve, but which He embraced for the love of the Father and mankind. Could she not have said to Jesus, “You don’t have to do this, there are other ways. Do you know how much pain You are causing me and those who love you?” She knew He could have chosen any other way t...
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